Experience Me Ch. 1
I have already received so much support from you guys about my book, and it's not even out yet!!
I am so excited for you guys to download it and read it come Christmas Eve. So excited, I fact, that I don't want to to wait that long.
So, my dear friends, here is a sneak peek into my book Experience Me! Keep on reading to get there official first chapter of the book!
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1.
“Am I gay?”
I remember being sixteen, and being told that I was gay.
ol over iIt was my deepest, darkest secret by far, and now it was be vocalized outside of me, and I had no control over it.
Of course I denied it—I didn’t know what else to say or do.
Yet, here it was again, this pervasive question being brought up in my head.
“Am I really gay?”
I tell you, my dear Friend, I feel pain in this question. Pain, fear, and confusion beyond the wildest imaginations of those who’ve never faced it.
It made it hard for me to breathe back then. To see it again can still be hard at times, only now for a different reason.
My dear friend, yes, you do have an attraction to women.
But you are not your attractions.
This is why I try to stay away from using such phrases as “gay” or “lesbian,” because they aren’t sufficient. Your inherent nature as a human being cannot be reduced to who you desire to be involved with romantically. Your sexual desires are one small part of your experience as a human person. You cannot be looked at as a partial being; you are a human being, given inherent dignity in your entirety by the God of all creation.
I feel that it also leaves so much room for judgement, as if the world looks upon this part, and fills in the gaps with its misconceptions and prejudices. As Christians, we care called to love our neighbors, which means we must love them as people. We must love them as they are, as all that they are.
This also calls us to a greater love of ourselves, because we cannot hope to change the world if we cannot change ourselves. We have to love who we are first, before we seek to authentically love others, and who we are is more than worthy of being loved.
Who you are is a cherished, unrepeatable and beautiful child of the Most High, set upon this earth with breath in your lungs and the will in your heart to return to your Creator; your First Love, He who desires your good.
“But now thus says the LORD,
he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel:
‘Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name, you are mine.’”
Isaiah 43:1 (RSV)
Love that does not know you—all of you—is not love at all.
And I wish to love all of you, my friend. It’s for that reason that I don’t wish to focus in on just a part of you.
My dear Friend, you are not a partial being.
Will the God of the Universe who created you call you home by your parts, or by your name?